Here's my mood, as best I can phrase the full feeling. I don't expect you to understand at first, but hey. At least I'm not being shy about this!!
So basically (and any one who knows me will know this) i am a True Neutral person. in other words, for anyone feeling or action. There is generally, and almost always, a equal opposite that will occur. In this case, I have lost the black sheltering on my soul and heart, and a feeling i havn't felt since i was 7 or 8 has been released.
Now, I'll put this on the sort of down-side first.
"I feel a large amount of hate inside me."
I'm quite sure that you all know what the opposite equal of hate is right?
So basically, I am in love, and have a GF now.
BUT! That hate is a downside. To remain Neutral, either I push her away, thus really hurting her, which I will not do. It's not my nature to just hurt. So I am going to have to learn to deal with the extar amount of hatred.
I beleive, strongly, that in the end. I will not only be back to my normal, "protect everyone at all costs" self, but I will BE stronger from it.
There. Now you know.
Hm... strange sort of. This little Chaotic Demon has actually managed to find and have love!
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Should also put that, this will not affect AT ALL, my usualy random, slightly angry, laughable, PARTY IN CHAT (or party wherever there is a lyable excuse), shrewed, bit rude, over-protective, nut-case, sick humour, game playing crazy, typical butch male attitude.
PS: I'm gonna' see if i can get her sign up here.... he's not much a gamer, but at least then you can meet her and all that. AND IF ANYONE FREAKIN' HURTS HER IN ANY WAY, PREPARE FOR MORE THAN THE WORST OF IT!!!!!!