Here's my mood, as best I can phrase the full feeling. I don't expect you to understand at first, but hey. At least I'm not being shy about this!!
So basically (and any one who knows me will know this) i am a True Neutral person. in other words, for anyone feeling or action. There is generally, and almost always, a equal opposite that will occur. In this case, I have lost the black sheltering on my soul and heart, and a feeling i havn't felt since i was 7 or 8 has been released.
Now, I'll put this on the sort of down-side first. "I feel a large amount of hate inside me."
I'm quite sure that you all know what the opposite equal of hate is right?
So basically, I am in love, and have a GF now.
BUT! That hate is a downside. To remain Neutral, either I push her away, thus really hurting her, which I will not do. It's not my nature to just hurt. So I am going to have to learn to deal with the extar amount of hatred.
I beleive, strongly, that in the end. I will not only be back to my normal, "protect everyone at all costs" self, but I will BE stronger from it.
There. Now you know.
Hm... strange sort of. This little Chaotic Demon has actually managed to find and have love!
Should also put that, this will not affect AT ALL, my usualy random, slightly angry, laughable, PARTY IN CHAT (or party wherever there is a lyable excuse), shrewed, bit rude, over-protective, nut-case, sick humour, game playing crazy, typical butch male attitude.
PS: I'm gonna' see if i can get her sign up here.... he's not much a gamer, but at least then you can meet her and all that. AND IF ANYONE FREAKIN' HURTS HER IN ANY WAY, PREPARE FOR MORE THAN THE WORST OF IT!!!!!!